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This has catalyzed an intense chain reaction of thoughts in my brain.

As I’ve mentioned like a bazillion times: I grew up in an Xtian doomsday cult. The sex education I received basically entailed two pieces: masturbation is a sin & the unscientific concluding post-script condoms don’t reliable prevent pregnancy of the transmission of STDs.

I mean my mom did buy me a book (James Dobson’s Preparing for Adolescence–if you’re ever irresponsibly bored and have an afternoon to dedicate to fomenting outrage, I’d recommend it).

What I learned about sex arrived initially through my friends, depictions of sex in Hollywood movies and a little bit later on: porn.

It was all about volume and voids–a volume introduced to a void and, in so doing, both realize their latent purpose.

As much as Xtian folks liked to talk shit about Freud’s ideas, their objections were less with his framework than with his insistence about openly discussing sex and sexuality.

In fact, there was a good bit of overlap between Freud’s conceptualization and their own. His notion that the presence of a penis and the conjoined realization that it was possible to be without a penis introduced castration anxiety, while the realization that not having a penis introduced penis envy.

Framing things in terms of volumes and voids creates this tension between giving and taking. It’s a tension that I’ve never really understood and is something which is so heavily tied up in my personal experience of cis-heteronormative politics that I have trouble seeing my way around any of it.

I have never really related to wanting to fill or be filled. I want to be emptied out.

I think to me this is just about the best way I’ve stumbled upon to express my sense of myself as queer.

In my late teens, I somehow stumbled onto Dan Savage’s Savage Love column when it was still in The Village Voice.

If Dan Savage was my first real honest-to-goodness provider of sex education, it was Tristan Taormino’s superb companion column Pucker Up which served as my crash course in how to stop being a kink shaming prude and learn to embrace new/different experiences and expand your horizons.

I specifically remember reading one of her columns where she talked about anal fisting. One of the persons interviewed talked about the feeling of having someone fist deep in your colon was a borderline transcendent experience.

The look on this dude’s face while he’s the meat in an MMM sandwich makes me think that there might be some merit to the notion that certain acts of sexual extremity can–in fact–bring about transcendent states.

Beyond that though this is really the first time I’ve experienced a desire to be a void waiting to be filled.

It reminds me of an interview Stoya did for Jezebel in conjunction with her new book Philosophy, Pussycats & Porn where while decrying the lack of substantive sex ed in the US, she also points out that:

[Porn] can be used to get a window into things that you might not want to
participate in yourself, like, for instance, with the more intense BDSM
stuff it can be a really good idea to experience some pornography about
it first, and imagine yourself in those shoes, before you do something
that risks being too intense. It can be a way of feeling out desires
instead of just diving straight in.

I would go a step further and say that as long as their is a rigorously fact based sex education component in place, pornography when consumed with a modicum of mindfulness can introduce you to things you never knew interested you but suddenly you are curious about.

Carlos SaezHuman Appearance Optional (2017)

By way of explanation, Saez posits this piece as “a multiprocess collage inspired by morphological freedom and group sex.”

My first thought was that it was hentai adjacent–it’s hard to see tentacles in any sort of sexually charged context without immediately going there.

I didn’t pick up on the graphic depictions of sexual intercourse; the is-it-a-glazed-ceramic sculpture-or-2D-painting aesthetic makes the viscous fluid like masses look like a swirled mass of organs or perhaps organs modeled from oobleck.

What finally clued me in to the sexually explicit aspects was the rebar/vaccuum hose penetration in the third image from the top. From there on it’s a treat to follow the whorls, swirls and plasticine florishes. To see things as sexual, visceral (in the sense of viserca), effluvial discharge and then as piece of a collage. (For example: the abs in the final image are not the same as but remind me of the cover for Chuck Palaniuk’s novel Choke.)

The fluidity of these constructions resonates with a project I’m in the preliminary phases of researching. However, the more I look at it the more I’m realizing two things:

I’m really into psychedelia. I love psychedelics and am even more fond of music made to be more fully experienced in altered states. But psychedelic visual art leaves quite a bit to be desired. The fractals and DMT inspired spirit realms are interesting. Someone like Alex Grey has a fantastic sense of design and visual flow–but it all leaves me feeling like I’ve lived on nothing but Oreos and Mt. Dew for several days. It’s mostly eye candy with little if any sustenance. (If I wanna stare at fractals, I’ll jump down into an Islamic art K-hole.)

But what I realized about the above image is that in so far as it appears sculptural it actually has a fair degree of overlap with Rococo sculpture, actually. It’s partly the way Rococo was primarily decorative in nature, favored a pastel palette and emphasized serpentine lines and asymmetrical compositions. (And that strikes me as a shortcoming of most psychedelic visual art because there is a focus on symmetry as a means of parsing the load universe into cannon, aim at brain, pull trigger reality of the experience of getting really fucking high. In the process of writing this I’ve been looking at a bunch of rococo art and I think it’s actually more in line with the way I experience ‘visionary’ states.

Fair Use

I put a lot of time and energy into giving credit where it’s due.

Roughly, half the things I post are not credited when I encounter them. I’ve gotten really good at sourcing things. There are, however, limitations–Google Image Search has gotten worse; TinEye has improved incrementally.

Point is: wherever possible I include proper attribution. (Further: I admit when I don’t know the source so that A.) the reader can know I’m not claiming it’s mine and B.) that I did make every effort at due diligence as far as curatorial concerns go. (I know Tumblr frequently gives curation a bad name but it is what I am about here in as good of faith as I can manage given that this is one area where I am an autodidact.)

If you see something I couldn’t find the source for and you know the source. Please pass the info along. (Pretty sure anyone who has ever done so will vouch for how approachable I am about that sort of thing and about how quickly I resolve such issues.)

If I included your work and it’s properly credited and you don’t like it living on this site–reach out and let me know. I’m not an unreasonable girl.

I’m saying all of this because I was recently accused of stealing an image despite the fact that it is both credited to the best of my ability and also links back to the original post? (If I was stealing it, why would I have included so many extra steps to credit the author and point back to the original work via a citation? I’d either be a really dumb thief or maybe I wanted to showcase your work and send some of the folks who follow this blog in your direction?

I know the despicable Tumblr trope of stating on your front page that the images on this blog are assumed to be public domain, etc., etc. Fair use is a bit of a different beast, however.

Generally speaking: fair use holds that copyrighted material may be quoted verbatim without seeking the permission of the copyright holder in the cases such as news reporting, teaching, research and criticism/commentary. (Acetylene Eyes is–unless you’re illiterate–decidedly inline with that final example. I’d also argue this site is sometimes didactic but I try not to draw too much attention to that because learning is for squares, daddy-o.)

As far as disproving fair use: you would be required to prove any number of things but two things in particular stand out: there is a burden of transformativeness (i.e. it’s a dumb example but think of a video of how to hammer in a nail; imagine that video is then taken by a sociology teacher and used as an object lesson to illustrate dialectical materialism. Guess what: what’s fair use) and you have to prove that the fair use has created a financial hardship. That’s going to be tough to do when what I posted has double digit notes while the original has 10X as many.

I’d address the accusation that this project is unoriginal except somehow I feel that if you think sharing something with citations that link back to both the creator and the original content is ‘stealing’ then I’m not sure what what I’d take rather a dim view of what you would consider ‘originality’ entails. But that’s not a path I’m interested in taking

Luc LafnetIllustration for Étreintes sacrilèges: Sonnets of Lucio Dornano  (1926)

Lafnet was a Belgian painter, cartoonist and member of Cercle et Carré (a group of abstract artists boasting connections to the likes of Kandinsky, Le Corbusier and Mondrian).

Most of his work demonstrates a decidedly proto-Renaissance sensibility but he also proved adept in contemporary painting trends. For example: Satyre de la médecine is reminiscent of Rembrandt’s Philosopher in Meditation, Les malheurs de la guerre is like a mashup between Bosch and Dalí, Self-portrait in ink anticipates film noir while Still life is decidedly impressionist–not to mention his knack of working convincingly in a broad range of abstract flavors of the week.

Much of his work was founded upon an intense preoccupation with eroticism. In that, the above drawing is typical of his work. (Although it’s interesting that precious little is known about Lucio Dornano who authored the sonnets this drawing was created to accompany.

#1800

No matter it’s frequent pretensions, Acetylene Eyes is a Tumblr sex blog. A good amount of privilege allows it to exist: I am gainfully employed and have the time and resources to dedicate anywhere from 25 to 30 hours per week.

This is not something I take lightly. Also: being that sex transpires in the world of the real against an endlessly shifting backdrop of people and politics, I feel I have a responsibility to ground what I do here in the desert of the real. Thus, every 50th post is dedicated to drawing attention to current events.

This entry is going to be pretty damn dire, I’m afraid. And given how much horrifying news their is day in and day out, I can’t possibly deal with all of it. Instead, I am going to give you a glimpse at the perspective with which I consume news media.

First, I need to establish a caveat–namely: I was raised in a Xtian doomsday cult. Upon extricating myself from that situation, I continue to have friends from different spiritual traditions. I have friends that are Muslim, friends that are Buddhists and even one friend who is Hindu.

In other words, I’ve seen both the good and the bad of religiosity. No one tradition has either a corner on goodness or is fundamentally evil. I say this because increasingly there is a tendency in public discourse to generalize and generalizations tend to provide a little too easy of adaption to foment prejudicial ideas and/or bigotry.

I’m qualifying all of this because I am preparing to really take Evangelical Xtians to task. But I don’t want what I am saying to ever be seen as stoking anti-Christian sentiments. I am of a mind that folks can believe whatever the fuck they want. The issues I have with personal faith relate entirely to the public face of that belief–i.e. what you believe is wrong and given that it is wrong my belief is only as valid as the efforts I make to correct your wrongness, hypocritic inconsistencies, etc.

Also: I have had an influx of new followers lately and several have had insidiously hateful memes posted about Islam. If I see stuff like that on a blog, I will block you. There is good and bad in every religion. However, as a thought experiment consider how Daesh–whose ideology is in point of fact anti-Islam and vociferously condemned by the vast majority of the Islamic diaspora–are referred to in the western media as ‘militant Islamists’. Compare this to half-baked West Coast flavor Buddhism and the notion that Buddhism is a peaceful, non-violent religion, the little bit I know about the situation with the Rohingya in Myanmar relates to Buddhist violence against an Islamic minority. Hinduism has the caste system and the whole mess with Kashmir.

Anyway, given this preamble you’ll likely realize I am going to be focusing primarily on the announcement that US Supreme Court Justice Anthony Kennedy is retiring after a rash of conservative activist rulings. This has many people rightly worried. Kennedy, a flagrant racist (demonstrated by his record of supporting not only Dump’s Muslim ban but also voting rabidly to disenfranchise PoCs and minorities), has historically voted with the more liberal justices on decisions relating to marriage equality and Roe v. Wade. (Also, never forget Kennedy’s hand in Citizens United, one of the worst decisions in the history of the court.

Dump has been conducting a flattery campaign in an effort to get Kennedy to step down since before he took office. He has also promised his base that he will install a conservative, anti-abortion zealot. In practice, this means the long litigated challenges to Roe v. Wade will likely only last for another year (although SCOTUS hears cases earlier in the year, decisions are not published until mid-to-late June). Whereas the previous split was 5-4 in crucial cases, that is likely to know be 5 conservative votes to 4 centrist votes. (The terrifying thing is that if Dump were to get a 2nd term, he will almost certainly replace to more justices–making the count 7-2.)

But–I hear you interject–surely Bitch McConnell changed the Senate rules when Obama nominated Merrick Garland for a seat on the bench. With fevered conviction, he maintained that it was too close to an election and that the choice should be offered to the American people in November.

We are now closer to an election than we were when Garland was nominated but what does the constipated turdle (turtle + turd, two things McConnell could easily be mistaken for upon unconsidered first glance) have to say now: we will vote on and confirm the nominee before the mid-term elections.

A good number of folks have pointed out that the constipated turdle knows he’s being a hypocrite and that instead the focus should be on how there is an on-going investigation into the president that might end up in front of the Supreme Court–in front of a judge that Dump appointed. Given his demands from former FBI Director James “But Her Emails” Comey of a loyalty oath, it’s not difficult to see how any appointment right now would be deeply problematic.

That is, unless you watch only Fox News and believe that Mueller’s investigation is nothing more than a boondoggle that has accomplished nothing (oh, nevermind those 5 guilty pleas and 17 indictments: fake news!).

I think there’s arguably another lesson here: the GOP are a craven bunch of power drunk shitstains. They know they are being hypocritical. They want the focus to be on their hypocrisy because as long as that’s the focus the can continue to push through their agenda. (It’s when the focus is on the consequences of their ideological legislation is the topic that they have more trouble.)

Also: engaging on principle assumes your opponent is arguing in good faith. The GOP have shown very clearly that they are not. Arguing with them on principle means that they can whatabout instead of engaging with the argument, ignore you or instead paint you as an intractable activist. This leads to frustration with the discourse that leads to incivility.

As you’ll likely have heard by now Sarah Fuckabee Sanders was asked to leave a Northern Virginia restaurant because of her affiliation with the Dump administration. Conservatives actually have the audacity to decry this as un-American and a symptom of the decay of civility in our society. Again, you can engage on principle and point out Newt Gingrich, Rush Limbaugh, Fox News, Sean Hannity, Joe Wilson, not to mention the endless crassness of Dump. Or, instead of arguing in good faith, you can realize their bad faith and attempt to hold them to account by demonstrating to them that their ideas have real world consequences for everyone but themselves. Thus, publicly confronting them is a means of causing their actions to have consequences that directly effect them. They want civility because with civility they can continue to do whatever the hell they want without any sort of checks or balance.

And what do they want to do without checks or balances? Consider this proposed bill in Ohio as a model of what a good number of folks I grew up surrounded by would consider to be a centrist, mainstream piece of legislation: a bill that gives parents the right to abuse transgender kids.

The reason the GOP generally feels that they shouldn’t have to pay for welfare or other social programs is because they view that as the church’s sociological purpose. In practice that’s probably not such a bad notion–except that the Church can require concessions from the supplicant, i.e. conform or be cast out. Further: the anti-abortion movement is a direct off shoot of white supremacy. Abortion will never be completely illegal in this country–it will just only be available to those who are rich enough and white enough. The cost of raising a child makes people dependent upon work and the more dependent you are upon your employment, the less you can counter unreasonable demands placed upon you by your employer. In a vaccuum, capitalism dictates that business will always favor getting more for less.

But if you really want to see the degree to which white supremacy is backed in to the evangelical mindset, google you’re local planned parenthood and cruise by it. Note the anti-abortion protestors. Find someone with a sign that proclaims life is sacred and ask them if that’s true why the aren’t at the southern border advocating for children who are being kept in cages, some of whom have been separated from their parents for weeks. Focusing on the handful of people who might choose to end a pregnancy over children that very much could use support and advocacy…

From where I’m sitting, it appears that Dump will nominate an extremist judges. Senate Dems only need two votes to nix the nomination. However, at this point, I don’t think it’s going to matter. I’m not an expert but based on the polling I’ve seen, I see no indication of any so-called ‘blue wave’ in November. And make no mistake, short of Democrats re-taking both chambers, Dump will win a second term and install 4 justices on the court. The effects of this will be disastrous as that formulation will work to ensure that a consistently right leaning slant and we’ll never see a centrist, let alone progressive or leftist majority ever again.

I am of the opinion that it’s time for those of us who hold statuses the Evangelical right sees as abhorrent to very seriously begin to start laying the ground work to leave the country for our own safety. Yes, it is actually that bad already.