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Eber Figueria – Leonard Lucas (2016)

Be careful. The moment
you start talking you create a verbal universe, a universe of words,
ideas, concepts and abstractions, interwoven and interdependent, most
wonderfully generating, supporting and explaining each other and yet all
without essence or substance, mere creations of the mind. Words create
words, reality is silent.


               
                   –Nisargadatta Maharaj (via emergentseas)

There is a voice that doesn’t use words.
Listen.
                   —
Rumi (via blackshivers)

Source unknown – Title Unknown (201X)

From the standpoint of technique, this image is garbage-the composition is illegible, the cant muddles an sort of visual flow and considerations of inclusion vs. exclusion by the frame edges are irredeemably random.

But, there is at least one positive thing I can say about it: I’m feeling the tone.

I’m not entirely sure I can articulate what I mean. It has a lot to do with personal context.

The last several weeks have been difficult.

I won’t get into all of that, just what’s relevant to this post: witnessing the religious right’s response to Black Lives Matter & Djingo Unhinged the lack of consistency in application of beliefs, lapses in reasoning and application of basic logic has been intensely triggering for me.

I attended an Evangelical Xtian high school. It was every bit as heinous as it sounds–probably more so, to be honest. The current climate transports me back a quarter of a decade and I feel just as confused at trapped.

I don’t think you fully understand the capacity for evil, the gravity with which hatred blooming from a misguided sense of Xtian duty motivates these evil and venally corrupt ass hats. I’ve seen it. I still bear far too many scars from it.

And like that I’m back in the thick of the same shit I’ve been trying to outrun for most of my adult life.

I feel like I always thought escaping would be enough. I never thought it would come to a point where I would need to stand and fight. I feel so clumsy and ill-prepared. For all my articulation w/r/t this project, I’ve not made that much progress is my life as far as communicating my thoughts to my peers, being open and forthright with regards to my sexuality and desires.

I adore the simple openness of this image. Yes, it’s most likely a prelude to a group sex scenario. (I think that’s part of what appeals to me about the notion of group sex is a safe space where you can perform your sexuality instead of reducing it to labels or incomplete verbal descriptions.

I feel so much of who I am is tied up in that morass. And I struggle with knowing the line with where withholding it is dishonest as opposed to necessary/appropriate.

It reminds me of something a follower told me recently. Apparently Dan Rather interviewed Mother Theresa for 60 Minutes or something. He inquired what she said when she prayed.

She responded: Nothing. I listen.

Taken aback, Rather followed up: what does God say then?

Nothing. He listens too.

Source: balcon6

Source unknown – Title Unknown (19XX)

From a technical standpoint this image is garbage. There’s seemingly not logic for the composition, the way the guy in the background is decapitated, the guy being fellated’s left arm stretching awkwardly out of frame and then the bend of the elbow of the boy in the foreground could’ve been used to frame the sex act if he’d shifted his arms back and to frame right ever so slightly while sliding maybe a half inch toward frame right at the same time.

It is not, however, an uninteresting image. I really want the camera moved back and two the left about two feet; along with a shallower depth of field that instead of focusing on the boy sucking dick, the focus is instead on the way the guy in the mid-ground is looking back at the person whose hand he’s holding.

Source unknown – Title unknown (2009)

The above is an edit from a larger original image:

Apologies for the pixelation, but I can’t find the original so I had to screen cap the TinEye results.

This is sort of the opposite of my usual claim that less is more. The edit–although thoughtful for emphasizing the elbow, arm and side of the boys body as a window and presenting stylized skin tone as well as focusing attention onto the green yellow palate–is ultimately less engaging than the original.

Source unknown – Title Unknown (19XX)

I could comment on this isn’t necessarily a good picture but at least the depth of field softejs in both the foreground and background.But mostly I have been sleeping like shit for the last week and am not exactly in a frame of mind conducive to critical/analytical writing. So I’m just leaving this here because I think it’s hot as fuck.