Apologia

Dear Followers,

I want to apologize for the inconsistent quality of posts lately. I’ve been riding crests and sliding into troughs for more than a month now.

Unfortunately, It’s gotten to the point where giving this blog the attention it deserves is more than I can manage.

The truth is: I’ve been looking for a job for six months now and haven’t gotten so much as a callback. I have to find a job in two weeks or I will be homeless. I’ve been homeless before. It is the worst.

I am just on the no-danger-to-myself side of suicidally depressed.

Plus, I learned unequivocally that perhaps the last person who I truly have feelings for admitted in her estimation, there’s no chemistry between us.

This year I’ll be 37. My health is middling on a good day. One way or another I’m simply not long for this world.

That’s okay. And probably better for all parties involved. The little light I try to bring won’t really be missed.

This post isn’t the end. I promise I will be back. I don’t know when. It’ll be a minute.

I’ll still be around, though. Feel free to say ‘hi’. I’ll do my best to respond.

Lastly, thanks to Yumiko Campbell for reading from very early on. I appreciate it and it hasn’t gone unnoticed.

(A.P.–not sure you’ll ever see this–but in no small way this entire blog has been for you. All the things I’d never know how to say, are here between the lines. All the ways I love to touch you if the wanting was even a little mutual.)

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